My 2015 in Words

Hello everybody,
This is my last post in 2015. This year has been full of changes for me. That's why I decided to put down words that defined my year. I made a word cloud out of it and here it is!

I wish you a wonderful and prosperous new year 2016! I hope we all achieve our dreams and become better people this coming year!
See ya soon! :D

1 year Blogiversary!

Hello everybody!
I can't believe that it has been 1 year since I started this blog! I can clearly remember the night I started this. I had my exams going on and we had guests over that night. In the middle of my finals I had started a blog! I was so excited that day. I still get super excited when I see a new comment or a view from some remote country that I know very little about. If you've been following my blog, thanks a lot!! You're awesome! If this is the first time you came here, hi there!, I hope this won't be your last visit here! I hope to continue posting interesting stuff here.

Until next time,
Bye! :D

Christmas collab with Adorkable Darling

Hello everybody!
I hope you are having an awesome Christmas and are enjoying your holidays. This is the first collab post on my blog and Adorkable Darling from 'the wonderful (yet ordinary) life of me!' helped me with this. If you haven't checked he blog out, do so! Its wonderful! For this collab, I asked her a bunch of Christmas related questions. Here are her answers:


1) What to you is the best part about Christmas?
The best part is being with my whole family on Christmas eve. Everyone exchanges gifts , and I make music with my brother. We play a gift exchange game and let me say it can get pretty crazy. I'm from a Mexican-american family , so of course there is a lot of FOOD (another one of the best parts);Pozole , tacos , rice , tamales , and of course something sweet after dinner. It's always a good time.

2) Your favorite Christmas related activity and why you love doing it.
I love singing ( and playing on my piano) Christmas songs. I love making music in general but Christmas music is just so much more joyful.

3) Did you believe in Santa as a kid? If yes, how and when did you realize that he wasn't real?
Yes I did believe in Santa as a kid. I even thought that I had heard him on the roof one year, haha. I found out he wasn't real when I was 13. I was in Choir class and my class mates were talking about how they found out that Santa isn't real. I was a little in denial first but then I saw a video in history class that talked about when the classic image for Santa was created. Of course I didn't really tell my parents that I knew but they probably figured it out as i got older.

4) Your dream Christmas tree.
My dream tree would be decorated with blue and silver ornaments. I would have little white flowers scattered on the tree skirt and topped with a glittery angel. Also little white lights would look great hung on it.

She asked me a bunch of questions and here is what I replied to her. Do check it out!!

Do leave a comment with your answers for these questions! I'd love to read them!

Merry Christmas again!

Until next time,

Bye! :D

Update

Hello everybody,
If you have visited my blog before, you might notice some changes here! If this is the first time you've come here, hello and welcome! :D
Here's a list of changes and updates:
1) 
2) I've organized all my posts into categories - Thoughts, my journey and Fun stuff (you can see those tabs above)
3) I've added a Follow by email option. So you just need to enter your email id and you'll get an email every time I post something new. (Don't worry, it wont be too many emails)
4) I've enabled RSS feeds. So you can subscribe to them
If you're in a mood, click on "Join this site". That's the best way to follow this blog. Also enter your email id in the follow by email section. If you did that,

You're awesome!!
If you didn't, that's fine, I won't hate you. (But do! :P)
I have a whole bunch of interesting posts coming up! So stay tuned!
Until next time,
Bye! :D

Don't be ashamed to cry

Hello everybody,
I hope you're having a great day. It may look like I've chosen a very depressing topic to blog about today; but its not a depressing post! This is something that I've always wanted to write about.
I am a person who cries a lot. For that, I've been made fun of/ insulted innumerable times before. Crying, like laughter is something that is very hard to control. There are two main types of crying: 1) When things are not in one's control, people burst out in anger or cry 2) Out of sadness.
 If someone shouts at someone in anger, they are considered to be "strong" and instead, if someone cries out of frustration or not being able to control a situation, it is considered to be a "weak" reaction. Its not. It is just a different way of expression one's emotions. A lot of crying happens out of frustration rather than out of sadness. Just because you cry, it doesn't mean you fail at life or are incapable of handling a situation. It only means, at that point, you need sometime to think and figure out a way to handle the situation. When people burst out in anger, they don't have much self control on what they're saying and they may end up creating further problems because of something that they said without thinking. But these people don't care much about this. And that's fine too! It is just the kind of people they are. And then there are people who think about what may happen if they shout at someone in that state of mind and choose to remain silent and get their emotions out by crying. It isn't that they are weaker. Bottling up emotions only results in you becoming generally more depressed. If you feel like crying, cry! (If you want to scream, do! As long as you don't hurt someone else too much). Get your emotions out. You need to address the fact that something is bothering you. When you do that you may feel like crying. Do! You can't keep crying forever! Once you are done, you will be in a better frame of mind. You will be able to find a way to get over whatever is making you cry. You will address the issue that is making you feel any less happier than you should be. If you never acknowledge the fact that something is making you sad, you'll never find a way to solve the problem. You'll just learn to live with it. Why live with any kind of sadness when you can find a way to better it? Every problem has a solution! At least, there is a workaround for every problem. The most important part is to first acknowledge that you are unhappy about something. If it makes you feel like crying, don't hesitate to! It is a natural way of expressing feelings. Humans cry, dogs cry, dolphins cry! Its ok. Don't let anyone else tell you when it is ok to or not ok to cry. Don't feel the need to hide your emotions just to look like a strong adult. What people might think about you is not worth bottling up your feelings. And crying does not make you a weaker person!

I have struggled a lot in the past trying to control my tears. Not everyone reacts the same way to situations. I cry sometimes for getting a lower score than expected. I know it is a trivial issue not "worth" crying about. But that's just the way my brain decided to react! I didn't feel like crying at all when I left home (and country) for an indefinitely long period of time!. I am very attached to my family and I felt sad to be leaving them. But I did not feel like crying! The brain is a weird organ and you don't always know how it works. There is no "better" or "right" way to react to a situation, Crying is never a "weak" or "laughable" way to react to a situation. So don't hesitate. Let it go!
Until next time,
Bye! :D

Fame

Hello everybody,
Today I decided to write about my obsession about celebrities. I don't know if its only me or if it is a common thing, whenever I discover a new celebrity, I first like some work of theirs, then stalk them, get obsessed for a week/month, get jealous, compare my life with theirs, try to find an explanation as to why I'm not as successful as they are and feel depressed about life. At this point, I usually find something I think I'm slightly good at as compared to the general public, work at it like someone possessed for a week/month, feel better and stop pursuing the activity.
Currently, I'm at the 'compare my life with theirs' phase. I know what's coming up next and I'm not too happy about it.
Why am I obsessed about being famous? I want to know what it feels like to have thousands of re-tweets and tens of thousands of people favoriting your tweet each time you tweet. Waking up to a thousand new subscribers on YouTube, hundreds of comments saying 'You're the BESTTT', 'I LOVEE YOU' 'Amazing work' etc. But after a point, does it start to feel meaningless? But still, getting such encouragement from thousands of people for the work you do must feel pretty amazing. I too work. The only return I get from it is a salary. I'm sure there isn't a soul who admires the code I write or is jealous of me because I built a super awesome app (I didnt... hypothetically speaking). Celebrities get to do what they love the most, get paid more than well, AND get the adoration of millions! How lucky are they!? I agree, superstars lose all their privacy, need to be careful about every action of theirs, don't exactly get to do what they love, have other people directing every move of theirs' etc. I agree that their lives have quite a bit of problems. But its not the super stars that I'm envious about. Its the moderately popular people that I'm really envious about. They have enough popularity to have a million followers on social media; but at the same time, they can lead normal lives without being surrounded by paparazzi the minute they step out of their house. (I'm referring to YouTubers, new singers, comedians etc here). Do all those comments by millions of "fans" have any significance? Does anyone actually care about someone who does not even know that they exist?
Are they really more lucky than me? Would I really be happier if I was a semi-popular person? Is it possible that I may one day become popular? (Considering the fact that I have no special talent that could qualify me to become popular, this most probably is never going to happen. This is a different kind of popular that I'm talking about. Not the Mark Zuckerberg, Steve Jobs kind; but the Superwoman, Zoella kind.)
This post is such a mixed up random set of thoughts. I'm in a really confused state of mind. Maybe its because of my reduced interaction with friends off late (all thanks to exams :( ). Earlier, I used to have long conversations with my best friend on this topic and that would help me get over the why-is-my-life-so-miserable phase a little faster. Now I need to resort to my blog to do this.
If anyone actually got to this point, CONGRATULATIONS! You really are a patient person. If this post made any sense at all to you, let me know!
I have my finals in less  than a week and I'm rambling about fame. :/
Until next time,
Bye!:D